From the 23rd June I’m supposed to return to work. To say I’m a little anxious about it would be an understatement. My main job as a retail manager means I deal with a lot of people everyday, and whilst the infection rate has supposedly gone down; it seems like a second wave is heading our way. I’ve found that my anxiety has started to spike just at the thought of my return to work.
My mother currently works in the local hospital and has seen an increase in positive patients. Which doesn’t surprise me. With all the commotion that went on over bank holiday and the beaches being packed full of people. I’d be surprised if there wasn’t an increase in patients.
Return to work
At the beginning of lockdown, I couldn’t wait to return to work. Now, I’ve had a lot of time to think about my life, and I realise that this job isn’t my future. I do enjoy my job, the people I work with and the customers that come in. But I’ve also realised that it doesn’t make me 100% happy. If Miss Rona has taught me anything, it’s that life’s too short to waste days doing something that doesn’t contribute to your happiness.
Whilst I can’t financially just up and leave my job, I do want to start and make steps towards doing something that does make me happy.
For me, part of that is writing.
As I mentioned in my “Back to writing” post, I’ve always wanted to write a book, and I’ve started doing that (thanks for all the supportive comments.
I’m also looking at new skills I can learn that can transfer into working from home, for myself. At the moment I’m using skillshare, which has been quite good. I’ve watched a few writing courses, and one on blogging for income which was fairly informative.
I’m not looking for a miracle to happen. I know it’s not going to happen overnight, but I’m determined to do something that will help my future and make me happy in what I’m doing. I’m unsure what that is exactly, but I’m sure I’ll figure it out.
What I want to know now?
What has lockdown taught you about yourself? Has it opened up any dormant dreams? Has it made you look at life differently?
Take care, stay safe.
James. aka Anothermaleblogger.