Do I want to return to work?
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From the 23rd June I’m supposed to return to work. To say I’m a little anxious about it would be an understatement. My main job as a retail manager means I deal with a lot of people everyday, and whilst the infection rate has supposedly gone down; it seems like a second wave is heading our way. I’ve found that my anxiety has started to spike just at the thought of my return to work.

My mother currently works in the local hospital and has seen an increase in positive patients. Which doesn’t surprise me. With all the commotion that went on over bank holiday and the beaches being packed full of people. I’d be surprised if there wasn’t an increase in patients.

Return to work

At the beginning of lockdown, I couldn’t wait to return to work. Now, I’ve had a lot of time to think about my life, and I realise that this job isn’t my future. I do enjoy my job, the people I work with and the customers that come in. But I’ve also realised that it doesn’t make me 100% happy. If Miss Rona has taught me anything, it’s that life’s too short to waste days doing something that doesn’t contribute to your happiness.

Whilst I can’t financially just up and leave my job, I do want to start and make steps towards doing something that does make me happy.

For me, part of that is writing.

As I mentioned in my “Back to writing” post, I’ve always wanted to write a book, and I’ve started doing that (thanks for all the supportive comments.

I’m also looking at new skills I can learn that can transfer into working from home, for myself. At the moment I’m using skillshare, which has been quite good. I’ve watched a few writing courses, and one on blogging for income which was fairly informative.

I’m not looking for a miracle to happen. I know it’s not going to happen overnight, but I’m determined to do something that will help my future and make me happy in what I’m doing. I’m unsure what that is exactly, but I’m sure I’ll figure it out.

What I want to know now?

What has lockdown taught you about yourself? Has it opened up any dormant dreams? Has it made you look at life differently?

Take care, stay safe.

James. aka Anothermaleblogger.

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This Post Has 8 Comments

  1. Know it’s tough to consider going back to work, especially in retail, when the pandemic is nowhere near over (despite some people thinking it might as well be!) however I hope when you get back you can be eased into it. Lockdown has taught me I want to contribute more towards my blog and get better at it, although I still struggle with motivation on some days! Keep at it James!

    1. I’ve just come off a conference call with the big wigs and we’ve been told we can have staggered returns which is nice. When i’ll be able to go back is another question as I’m identified as clinically extremely vulnerable. So won’t be going back in June….

  2. Boomer EcoCrusader

    I learned that I actually don’t mind staying home and, although I didn’t think I could work from home on a full-time basis, I’m enjoying it. Our return to the office date is unknown at this point. Depending on what office life will look like, I may just put my hand up to stay home.

    1. I was expecting to go back on the 23rd of June but now that’s been thrown into the air and could now be the end of July…. I just wish we had a bit more of a clearer picture on when we can go back and how it’s going to work. Thanks for your comment x

  3. Lamara Travels

    What you’ve written in this post is relatable to many. I wish I was in the same position but I was made redundant and still searching for work. Hopefully all goes well for you when you go back ☺️

    1. I’m sorry to hear you’ve been made redundant!! I think anxiety clouded my thoughts from the reality that I’m lucky to have a job when so many have lost theirs. Definitely put some perspective back. I really hope you manage to get back into work soon! Thanks for the reality check.

      James.

  4. Nick

    My wife and i both work in a resturant with no way to distance ourselves from others idk if we will be going back. Its nerve racking to say the least!

    1. The store I work for is tiny. They’ve put the safety measures in place but after 12 weeks off so far it’s certainly set my anxiety off. Thanks for taking the time to comment 🙂

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